Abandonment? No not really.

Learning the basics of driving was fun. My father said I did pretty well. In fact I only hit the curb once. Though when he asked if I wanted to start a bit on the street I immediately declined, I'm not that ready yet. Though once we got near Lamping Elementary he asked if I wanted to drive us home, I said yes and we switched and I drove the rest of the way home. However I didn't pull into the garage since my mom's car was parked in there and I didn't want to hit it. Unfortunately Dad and I won't be able to continue our lesson this weekend, he's away on a business trip in Reno.

He doesn't seem to be interested in the achievements that I make. Or maybe it's just me. By 'he' I mean my father. Like when I told him that I get to be in Theater instead of Spanish or French he's like "Okay...". He gets so caught up in work. Spending more time with him would be great if he didn't have to head up to Reno every Monday and Tuesday.

Have I mentioned that cicadas are frightening? We were on a walk the other night and I saw one and didn't know what it was. I put my foot near it and it started buzzing at me and began to chase me. I ran away screaming and freaking out. Jesus.

Time

I feel like I'm running out of things to do in the next week that is my summer break. I have a consistent schedule of what I do every day. I wake up, work out on the Wii Fit for 35-50 minutes, brush my teeth, get on the computer for however long, sometimes I have lunch at a consistent time but most of the time I don't, Mom comes home, asks me to do something that occupies my mind for a while. Sometimes I read, creative surges come and go, to the point where so much is in my mind that I need to write down describing it so that I won't forget it. I'll get a surge to do something creative and productive, then it'll suddenly drain out of me like a crack addict coming off of their high. Then at night Mom and I prepare dinner, sometimes Dad comes home at this time, sometimes he doesn't. A couple nights a week I go for walks or runs with Mia' then come home, get on the computer again for however long, Mom tells me to get off, I change into my jammies, sit in bed, watch television for a while, then usually end up turning off the TV because nothing interesting is on or fall asleep with the TV on. Then it starts all over again the next day when Mom wakes me up. Some days there are slight changes in this schedule of mine, sometimes we go places. And anywhere I go I feel that I overdress because I don't do my make-up or anything when I'm home. However this is going to end starting tomorrow (which is almost today). Mom and I are going to H&M to see what they have for clothes, though I already have most of the clothes I need. Then Sunday my dad is planning on starting on teaching me how to drive. Then Monday I have to take a test with my couslor to get my PE credit, which means I have to study, haven't done that in a while. And the more that I don't start on my art makes me want to do it more. I think I'll start it soon.

I'm currently trying to find a music video that I really like, and it came out abou 4 or 5 years ago. And for the life of me I can't rembmer the band's name. All I remember is the opening chorus and guitar rifts. This is frustrating.

Also, what the hell is with all of the "I's" in a straight row like that on the "Notation" post?

Notation

I just noticed that most of my posts are ridiculously long. I guess I just have a lot on my mind all the time. Or it's a habit. Either way I have long posts, most of them aren't short and sweet.

For the record, arachnids and cicadas are frightening. Gives me the heebee jeebies just thinking about them.

Oi

A difficult decision was made last week. I had to either choose going to the Panic at the Disco show in October, or ever getting a shirt from Davey Havok's clothing line. After much deliberation, I chose to get a shirt. If by some miracle I can obtain $60 in the next month, it will go towards a concert ticket. Being 15 1/2 with no job is difficult, especially since it appears as though I'm wanting more and more stuff. My mother has even said that she's sick of buying so much stuff for me, and that I need to start paying for it myself. Hopefully my dad can talk to that guy Steven about a possible job for me at the Southpoint working at the horse arena. Even if I do some how obtain that much money in a couple months, what about spending money for when I go to Disneyland for a friend's birthday in September? This is proving to be very difficult.

I've also come to realise that I am a true teenager. My mom wanted me to go to bed last night because she was tired, and it was about 11:00ish. I was like, no Mom, I can put myself to bed now. Then she started complaining about how she's always tired because she gets up with Bogart in the morning. Well Mom, why do I have to go to bed as well for your sake? Then she starts talking about how I've had ALL DAY to be on the computer. That's not true, I worked out like I normally do, got on here for a little while, then proceeded to go do something else. Then went on a 2+ mile walk with Dad and Austin. I also pointed out that when I get my licence I won't be hanging out at home most of the day, instead I'll be doing stuff with my pals. Then she proceeds to tell me that when I do I will have a curfew and still be responsible for what I do at home. Then she's like "Well I'd let you be on the computer right now if you weren't on all day, you don't even do what I ask. You don't even make your bed in the morning." That just shut me up on the spot right there. Well jee wiz Mom, you didn't establish that habit in my brain, cause don't you know? Healthy habits start at an early age! WOPTIE DOO. Needless to say we were both very pissed at each other. And there was still some tension between us this morning when we got up. Basically I'm saying that I argue like a normal teenager would, so I'm not that abnormal.

Happy 45th Birthday Mom!