X-mas Eve '08

Has been pretty awesome so far, OH NO YOU DIDN'T, ravioli, obnoxiousness, that sort of thang. A Christmas Story is supposed to start it's yearly 24-hour marathon here soon, I'll probably be up watching that most of the night.

Merry early Christmas to all!

Hunter and Dan, dancing like no tomorrow.

Send your own ElfYourself eCards

Dangit.

Stupid Spicy Pickle closing early on Sundays for no good reason. Dangit, and I really wanted a panini too. :( Disneyland with the fam-bam in about three weeks. Can't wait!!!!

In unrelated news......


HOLY HELL HAVOK, YOU ARE LOOKING PRETTY FINE. /end fangirling.

Aw Hell.

A girl from my school died in a car wreck last Friday night. She was a sophomore just like me, I guess she got partially ejected from the truck and died on the scene. The wreck was caused by a deadly combination of street racing and a drunk driver. It was very unfortunate. Olivia was really popular, and somehow I didn't know her. I really wish I had. I went to her memorial/viewing yesterday and it was awful, a lot of people were crying and couldn't control themselves, and I don't blame them. It was an open casket, that was probably the biggest impact. But she looked so natural, and really beautiful too, like a porcelain doll. And I've never seen so many people just lining up at a service, this had a HUGE impact on our school, especially since we just had the "Every 15 Minutes" Program (see it here: http://www.every15minutes.com/). I guess the program wasn't enough. And you know what really gets me mad about this whole situation? There are people saying that they are happy that she is dead or that she deserved to die because she wasn't wearing her seat belt. GUESS WHAT KIDS, NO ONE DESERVES TO DIE! That's the end of your life, you can't comfort people on their loss because YOU ARE THE LOSS. ONCE YOU ARE DEAD YOU ARE DEAD, YOU CAN'T JUST MAGICALLY COME BACK TO LIFE. Oh dear now I can't get the bold to go off, darn. Ok there we go... Anyways, let's just get over all the stupid stupid stupid drama, because drama gets you nowhere in your life, it just creates trouble. It's always best to avoid that sort of thang anyways, it means you can function with people without causing problems, which is rare these days.

So anyways, lets just remember Olivia for who she was, a great girl who died much too young. As they say, only the good die young, which is both true and unfortunate.

R.I.P. Olivia "Lynn" Hyten
September 23, 1993- November 14, 2008
You will be missed dearly by all.

You say you're on a revolution, well you know, we all want to change the world... especially Barack Obama

Tomorrow is Election Day, possibly the most important election in our nation's history. I'm just glad that I'm a part of it, even though I can't vote. I went to the Obama election on Saturday, it was really inspirational and just fantastic, I'm praying to God that he will win this election. Just thinking about waking up on Wednesday morning, turning on the news, and finding out that McCain won is giving me knots in my stomach. It would be an absolute heart-breaker. If he wins, then dies, then we are all screwed with that crazy Palin bitch coming into power, she doesn't know shit. I swear to God if he wins, I'm moving to fucking Canada, or I'll just curl up into a ball and cry hystaricly, either one will do. But if Barack wins, then we will truly be living in a part of history, with the first African American president ever.

If you have the capability to vote and have registered, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE vote for Barack Obama tomorrow, I can't stress it enough. And don't complain about the outcome if you didn't vote, that's your own problem.

I hope this works out.

Say whatever you want cause I can laugh it off.

Thank you Jimmy Eat World for those lovely lyrics.

Nothing much going on these days, the end of the quarter is in about two weeks. My teachers have decided to give me quizzes and/or tests all in the same two days, which is slightly stressful. Lots of Photo stuff due in the next few weeks too. Ms. P said it'll probably be like that most of the year, just something to get used to I guess.

Had one of those "Every 15 minutes" assemblies today. Even though I didn't personally know anyone who "died" it was still pretty rough. 22 people "died", it was horrible. I want to participate in it Senior year, it all depends I suppose.

Pro pro pro

-CRASTINATION.

I should be answering questions for World Lit., but I'm not! Got a little side-tracked, now I'm doing this. Listening to the radio right now, they have Panic! tickets that they are giving away, I want them very very badly. Could I win? Maybe, maybe not, ya never know.

Came up with this really cool idea for my album cover project, it comprises of yellow, a model horse, , a top hat, and some toys. Hopefully it'll turn out pretty awesome.

The dogs are beginning to piss me off, non-stop barking. Stupid, stupid dogs.

Nocturnal

Another weekend of starting homework at 10 o'clock Saturday night and not ending until 2 or 3 in the morning Sunday. I need to stop this before it becomes a habit.

Still have some homework to do later. Just one more section to do in the MWSG and do those silly Journal things. Then I have to study for my permit, which I'll probably get on Tuesday.

I really want to listen to AFI, but Bogart totally chewed up my headphones, stupid dog, then again it was sort of my fault but still, he shouldn't he that kind of stuff up.

We might get a Macintosh computer. Yus. And of course Modest Mouse comes on right before I'm about to get off. Gonna listen to it then go to bed. Night night.

Return

My mom totally deleted the previous posts I had on here, nice.

Got back from Disneyland trip with Kyler, Nilka, and Brittany about an hour and a half ago. So. Much. Fun.

Homework sucks.

Oh snap I almost forgot, 15 days until Disneyland with Brittany, Kyler, Nilka. YAY!

Awake

At nearly one in the morning. I feel like I could go do something like now, like a huge walk or go on the Strip or something. Strange, I normally don't feel this way. I bet you ten bucks that the minute my head hits the pillow I'll be out like a light.

I just came by to say how ridiculously awesome Pegasus is,




And unicorns are pretty sweet too you know,



That is all.

Abandonment? No not really.

Learning the basics of driving was fun. My father said I did pretty well. In fact I only hit the curb once. Though when he asked if I wanted to start a bit on the street I immediately declined, I'm not that ready yet. Though once we got near Lamping Elementary he asked if I wanted to drive us home, I said yes and we switched and I drove the rest of the way home. However I didn't pull into the garage since my mom's car was parked in there and I didn't want to hit it. Unfortunately Dad and I won't be able to continue our lesson this weekend, he's away on a business trip in Reno.

He doesn't seem to be interested in the achievements that I make. Or maybe it's just me. By 'he' I mean my father. Like when I told him that I get to be in Theater instead of Spanish or French he's like "Okay...". He gets so caught up in work. Spending more time with him would be great if he didn't have to head up to Reno every Monday and Tuesday.

Have I mentioned that cicadas are frightening? We were on a walk the other night and I saw one and didn't know what it was. I put my foot near it and it started buzzing at me and began to chase me. I ran away screaming and freaking out. Jesus.

Time

I feel like I'm running out of things to do in the next week that is my summer break. I have a consistent schedule of what I do every day. I wake up, work out on the Wii Fit for 35-50 minutes, brush my teeth, get on the computer for however long, sometimes I have lunch at a consistent time but most of the time I don't, Mom comes home, asks me to do something that occupies my mind for a while. Sometimes I read, creative surges come and go, to the point where so much is in my mind that I need to write down describing it so that I won't forget it. I'll get a surge to do something creative and productive, then it'll suddenly drain out of me like a crack addict coming off of their high. Then at night Mom and I prepare dinner, sometimes Dad comes home at this time, sometimes he doesn't. A couple nights a week I go for walks or runs with Mia' then come home, get on the computer again for however long, Mom tells me to get off, I change into my jammies, sit in bed, watch television for a while, then usually end up turning off the TV because nothing interesting is on or fall asleep with the TV on. Then it starts all over again the next day when Mom wakes me up. Some days there are slight changes in this schedule of mine, sometimes we go places. And anywhere I go I feel that I overdress because I don't do my make-up or anything when I'm home. However this is going to end starting tomorrow (which is almost today). Mom and I are going to H&M to see what they have for clothes, though I already have most of the clothes I need. Then Sunday my dad is planning on starting on teaching me how to drive. Then Monday I have to take a test with my couslor to get my PE credit, which means I have to study, haven't done that in a while. And the more that I don't start on my art makes me want to do it more. I think I'll start it soon.

I'm currently trying to find a music video that I really like, and it came out abou 4 or 5 years ago. And for the life of me I can't rembmer the band's name. All I remember is the opening chorus and guitar rifts. This is frustrating.

Also, what the hell is with all of the "I's" in a straight row like that on the "Notation" post?

Notation

I just noticed that most of my posts are ridiculously long. I guess I just have a lot on my mind all the time. Or it's a habit. Either way I have long posts, most of them aren't short and sweet.

For the record, arachnids and cicadas are frightening. Gives me the heebee jeebies just thinking about them.

Oi

A difficult decision was made last week. I had to either choose going to the Panic at the Disco show in October, or ever getting a shirt from Davey Havok's clothing line. After much deliberation, I chose to get a shirt. If by some miracle I can obtain $60 in the next month, it will go towards a concert ticket. Being 15 1/2 with no job is difficult, especially since it appears as though I'm wanting more and more stuff. My mother has even said that she's sick of buying so much stuff for me, and that I need to start paying for it myself. Hopefully my dad can talk to that guy Steven about a possible job for me at the Southpoint working at the horse arena. Even if I do some how obtain that much money in a couple months, what about spending money for when I go to Disneyland for a friend's birthday in September? This is proving to be very difficult.

I've also come to realise that I am a true teenager. My mom wanted me to go to bed last night because she was tired, and it was about 11:00ish. I was like, no Mom, I can put myself to bed now. Then she started complaining about how she's always tired because she gets up with Bogart in the morning. Well Mom, why do I have to go to bed as well for your sake? Then she starts talking about how I've had ALL DAY to be on the computer. That's not true, I worked out like I normally do, got on here for a little while, then proceeded to go do something else. Then went on a 2+ mile walk with Dad and Austin. I also pointed out that when I get my licence I won't be hanging out at home most of the day, instead I'll be doing stuff with my pals. Then she proceeds to tell me that when I do I will have a curfew and still be responsible for what I do at home. Then she's like "Well I'd let you be on the computer right now if you weren't on all day, you don't even do what I ask. You don't even make your bed in the morning." That just shut me up on the spot right there. Well jee wiz Mom, you didn't establish that habit in my brain, cause don't you know? Healthy habits start at an early age! WOPTIE DOO. Needless to say we were both very pissed at each other. And there was still some tension between us this morning when we got up. Basically I'm saying that I argue like a normal teenager would, so I'm not that abnormal.

Happy 45th Birthday Mom!

Paradox

Main Entry:

par·a·dox

Pronunciation:

\ˈper-ə-ˌdäks, ˈpa-rə-\

Function:

noun

Etymology:

Latin paradoxum, from Greek paradoxon, from neuter of paradoxos contrary to expectation, from para- + dokein to think, seem — more at decent

Date:

1540

1: a tenet contrary to received opinion2 a: a statement that is seemingly contradictory or opposed to common sense and yet is perhaps true b: a self-contradictory statement that at first seems true c: an argument that apparently derives self-contradictory conclusions by valid deduction from acceptable premises3: one (as a person, situation, or action) having seemingly contradictory qualities or phases

I feel like I am a paradox. Maybe it's because sometimes I can be really outgoing and loud, then the next second I'm unnoticeable and shy. Or the fact that I'm smart and intellectual most of the time, then I somehow pull some of the stupidest stunts, or say some really stupid things. People say that I'm original, but sometimes I feel like the average girl who doesn't think of anything witty or creative all the time. But it's okay to be a paradox I suppose, it just makes me, me, you know?

Any who, today was the last day of summer school. As usual I read most of the time while Brittany, Mariana, and Paulette took pictures and such. We were going to play Bullshit but my brother took my cards out of my bag yesterday afternoon and didn't put them back, so we couldn't play. I'm nearly finished with Life of Pi, only 6 pages to go. In fact I should probably go finish it right now. Esteban (aka Steven) had this bad ass Joker shirt on today, I want one really bad now. I'll probably go get it this weekend, along with a Joker bobble head.

My mom found a diary that she had begun writing in when I was two years old and had stopped when I was almost four because Austin was born. She wants me to write in it now. I can understand why, she barely remembers any of her childhood and wants me to remember mine via diary. She wishes she had a diary to write in, but she didn't. I enjoy writing in it, though I forget to write everyday, though I write every couple days, which is good.

To bring a cessation to this, I hope you all keep Jerry Finn in your thoughts and prayers, he needs it now.

There is a puppy sleeping on my arm.

Thus I can only type with one hand for now. As we speak my father is trying to put up these little artistic boxes to go up on my wall. We put up one of my AFI posters above my window that looks really nice, not many people have it so it looks really cool. My mother is watching me type this right now. Meh, I want to go see Ashes Divide on Friday, I really hope that works out some how. I'm in the process of writing Mr. Puget a nice letter, and sending a portrait of himself to him. I just hope he'll reply back.

I failed the first two lessons on my Tennis summer school course, so I dropped that and I'm going to be doing the one at the actual school instead. It'll be much more fun since I'll see Brittany and everyone.

I have a paper cut on my left index finger and it hurts like a bitch.

Panic At the Disco Concert Summer 08

So Panic was amazing, this is basically what happened that day, with all the pandymonium and such... yeah..., let's begin with how we managed to get to the Palms. Brittany came over at about 15 minutes to 2:00 in the afternoon, right while I was trying to put my mascara on, and trying to keep an eye on Bogart, our new puppy, as well. Then about two minutes after she arrived my mother came home. I had planned on leaving the house at 2:00 because we had to pick up Evan on the way to the Palms, so then we could get there by 3:00. Well we didn't leave my house until 2:20 because of a slight delay caused by me trying to get ready, and making a random video with Brittany in my room in the process. So we got to Evan's neighborhood to try and find his house, and we got lost. We had to call Evan to find his house, and he couldn't give us proper directions. XD But luckily we found his street on accident. Then Evan and his dad came out and Evan got in the car, and of course my mom and Evan's dad talked for what seemed like 10 minutes. Then we finally headed towards the strip. On the way there I told Evan and Brittany about this epic dream that I had with all of us in it, our friend Kyler, and a secret AFI AND Blaqk Audio show, a very awesome dream indeed. Then as we neared the Palms we started taking pictures of random stuff, Evan accidentally took a picture of a naughty looking sign, and I got a lot of pictures of the Palms sign that said "PANIC AT THE DISCO LIVE TONIGHT" We got into the parking lot, parked the car and headed towards the casino. On the way in we saw the Honda Civic Tour tent being set up, along with the Honda Civic Hybrid that Panic had designed themselves and signed. It was very nice looking. So we went into the casino and headed towards The Will Call window next to the Pearl. When we asked the lady where we were supposed to be for the Meet & Greet, but she didn't know and said that we should just stay in that general area. While we were waiting these girls came up, and they were really ugly girls who thought they were all that, and they started freaking out because they wanted to know where the front of the line was. When they asked one of the Honda Civic members to some how get them in first, she threatened them by saying she would take their tickets away if they did anything like that again, we thought it was pretty funny. Then security came by and said we had to move to the food court because we were blocking the entrance. So we went over to the food court and had some Panda Express. By this time it's 4:10, I have to be in the spot for the Meet & Greet by 4:30. So we went back to the Will Call window to ask again, and this time the lady told us to go where the Honda Civic tent was, which was outside where we had been. So we (Brittany, Evan, my mom, and I) went over there and waited with the mass amount of people there, other Northern Downpour winners, Radio winners, and early entry people. We waited for what seemed like half in hour out there. Then Zach, Panic at the Disco's tour manager, came out and started organizing people by how they had won and such. Like he gave orange wristbands to the radio winners and green wristbands to us Northern Downpour winners. It was funny because when my mom was behind me to make sure I got in ok, Zack was like, "Last name?" My mom said, "Oh I'm just making sure my daughter gets checked in and everything..." Then Zach said, "Well she's checked in, you can leave now." and he just went to the next person. I was like, "Jeez." Then my mom, Brittany, and Evan went off somewhere while I waited to go inside. I made friends with the girl who was behind me, I can't remember her name but she was pretty cool. After Zach was done checking everyone in he lead us, and the radio winners, into the Palms. We walked through the casino, I had my ticket, poster from the A Fever You Can't Sweat Out boxed set for them to sign, since I could only bring one item, bag open, and everything else ready to go. When we got inside the Pearl they checked our bags, then we went down four flights of stairs to get to the floor level. When we got there Zach set us up in the line in which we would go through to get our object signed. Then he explained to us the rules of meeting them. We could only have one thing signed, our object that was to be signed could only be signed with a black Sharpie, we could not hug them or shake their hand or else we would be escorted off the premises, not taking any pictures of the band while getting stuff signed, when we got our picture taken he would only take one, don't do anything stupid, etc. Zach was very straight forward and to the point, he wouldn't take any one's bull shit. They gave us these promo pictures of the guys if we wanted those signed, but later on when people were getting stuff signed EVERYONE was getting that signed, I'm glad I brought some options for myself. So then we all waited there for a minute, then calmly walking in as if they were walking down the street, came Panic at the Disco. My brain froze for a minute to try and analyze the situation, because in my head I was like "Oh shit, Brendon Urie is right there!" They went over and sat down at the little table where they were doing to sign stuff and the line started moving. My friend and I thought it was going to take forever, then sure enough our turn was only six people away. I started freaking out a bit, but I stayed calm and composed. John was the first one to sign stuff, I looked him in the eye and said "Hi Jon, how are you?" He said "I'm good thanks, have you been at the pool today?" as he analyzed the mini poster I gave to him to sign. I said, "No, but I heard you guys were out there earlier." Then I moved over to Spencer, who was next, and he seemed to be conversing with Jon and I, because I greeted him like "Hey Spencer!" And he said, "Hey! Yeah, the music was really loud out there." Then I said, "Well yeah you know it's the Palms..." Then big moment of truth, Brendon was up next. I went over to him and he looked right at me and said "Hi, how are you?" I said "I'm good, how about you?" "I'm pretty good." he said. Then to make myself stick out a bit, I said, "I like your piano tattoo, do you pull it out and play it sometimes?" Then he's like, "Oh yeah, I pull it out occasionally and play it you know?" "That's awesome." I said, and smiled. He smiled back. Then I went over to Ryan, who seemed shy. I said, "Hi! How are you?" He looked up at me as though he wasn't expecting it, but politely looked me in the eye and answered, "I'm good, how are you?" as he began to sign my poster. I said "I'm fantastic." He kind of looked at me weird like, okay... and said "Here you go." and handed back the poster. I said "Thank you, so much." I had a major fangirl moment there, crazy. After that I got back in line again to get my picture taken with them. As with the signing, the photo op came very quick. At one point I was at the back of the line then next it was my turn. So when my turn came up I gave Zach my ready camera, zoomed out and everything and got between Brendon and Jon. Jon put his arm around my waist and Brendon put his arm around my shoulders. I put my left arm around Brendon, I would have put my right arm around Jon but if was full of stuff, so I decided not to. Then right before Zach took the picture Jon leaned down to me and asked, "Hey, did you hear Zach say the F word?" "No," I replied, "why?" Jon and Brendon said, "Good." and everyone in the band, and Zach, began laughing. Then Zach took the picture, "Perfect!" he said after he took it. Then I got my stuff together and thanked them all and that I'd see them later at the show. They were all like, "No problem, thank you." And Brendon piped in "Thanks! We'll see you later!" And I waved goodbye and went to wait to see where I would go next. After all the pictures were taken they left, and they waved and people shrieked that they loved them and such. About two minutes later security got our attention and told us that we could begin going into the venue and that they just needed to ensure that we were going to the right places. So I immediately ran to the nearest security guard, had to wait in a small line of people for about 5 seconds, she checked my ticket and wristband, and let me in. I immediately ran into the venue, and HALF OF THE BARRICADE WAS EMPTY. I immediately got a spot on the right side of the barricade close to where Jon's microphone was going to be. I saved a spot for Brittany and called my mom to tell her that I was done and to tell Brittany and Evan to sprint into the venue. They had some cool stuff showing on the 'Honda Civic Tour Panic At the Disco Television' screens. Once early entry people began filling in behind me, I politely told them that I had a friend coming and it would be great if they let her through. At first they were like "Oh don't worry, we're only here for Phantom Planet, we're going to leave after they're done." Then I explained to them again but in better detail. They understood and said they would. Then more people came in behind me and I told them the same thing and they said they would let Brittany through. Then after I told them I tried calling Brittany and sure enough her and Evan came running in and I started freaking out trying to get her in. The people behind me were like "Don't worry we'll let her through! But he's really tall...." as they saw Evan. Evan ended up being two rows behind us, but it was okay because he's super tall and could see. Then we waited for 7:00 to roll around for Phantom Planet to come on. In between that time we entertained ourselves by reading the text messages that people were sending to the screens and reading them in funny ways. At about 7:05 Phantom Planet came on as the first of three opening bands before Panic. I must say that they were absolutely amazing. Their guitarist looked just like Adam Carson, which was really weird because he had the slightly crooked nose, facial hair, hair, and face like Adam. He seemed pretty cool. Brittany was really into their lead singer. XD During their set the lead singer got down from the stage and walked by the barricade holding out his hand for everyone to touch, so I got to touch his hand! Ha. Then about the third or fourth song into their set Ryan came out and shredded on the guitar a bit, that was really cool. On their last song the Hush sound, who was the next band on, came out and did some parts on drums for their last song, it was so cool. Then right after they finished the two girls behind me who said they were only there for them left, and Evan managed to shift up a row so that he was a row behind us. I'm definitely going to have to check out Phantom Planet's stuff, I loved it. The Hush Sound came on next, they were okay but I didn't like them that much. The only exciting part was when Brendon came out and sang with them, everyone freaked. The lead singer was like "Oh well he switched the lyrics up a bit. In fact he completely changed them." after Brendon left. Their lead singer's name was Bob, he was cool. At one point he was like, "So how many of you like Phantom Planet?" And a bunch of girls screamed, and he said "Well being on tour with them for two months I could tell you what deodorant they wear, but I really hate one of them." Then Phantom Planet came on stage and did some of a song with them. It was fairly boring though, not the part with Phantom Planet, just the Hush sound.The last opening band was Motion City Soundtrack. They were fucking awesome. The lead singer talked about how he liked Vegas and that he had seen the Incredible Hulk that afternoon., he had liked it and said there were only two cheesy parts that bothered him. They had a keyboardist, named Jesse, whose hair looked like Davey Havok's old hair. He was wicked. During their set the drummer threw a water bottle at him and Jesse just kicked it up with his feet and caught it. Then at one point he set a water bottle on one of the drum cymbals and when the drummer hit it it went flying in the air and he caught it. Their bassist's hair looked like Jade Puget's hair. He was cute. I made eye contact with him a couple times because he was right in front of me. After Motion City Soundtrack finished they threw their setlists and one landed in front of Brittany and I. Brittany managed to ask the security guard to get it for her. He picked it up, looked around and gave it to her. So she got a setlist, which was pretty cool. We waited for what seemed like forever for Panic to come on. They cleared everything off the stage and set up the little rugs and the three flower covered microphones on them. Zach came on stage a couple times to insure everything was okay, I waved at him, he waved back. At one point he walked through with a big box of Pringles, they must like them. Then the lights went off, and nothing happened. Everyone freaked and nothing happened, damn them for messing with us! After another ten minutes or so, the video screens changed to something we hadn't seen before. Then the lights flashed on and off and Panic came on stage. The crowd, including myself, went nuts. Everyone made their way on stage, Jon still in his flip-flops from when I met him, Brendon had changed out of his flip-flops and into some boots. They started with 'We're So Starving'. This isn't the order of the setlist, but I know that they played these songs,

-We're So Starving
-Nine in the Afternoon
-But It's Better if You Do
-I Constantly Thank God for Esteban
-That Green Gentleman (Things Have Changed)
-The Only Difference Between Martyrdom and Suicide is Press Coverage
-Lying is the Most Fun a Girl can have Without Taking her Clothes off
-Behind the Sea
-Camisado
-I Write Sins not Tragedies
-She's a Handsome Woman
-It's a Good Thing These Tables are Numbered Honey, you just Haven't thought of it Yet
-Folkin' Around
-Northern Downpour

Encore
-Time to Dance (Acoustic)
-Pas De Cheval(?)
-Mad as Rabbits

Like I said this wasn't the exact setlist, some are in order but I know they played these songs. Jon played the entire show barefoot, which I've never seen anyone do. When they first came on there were concert photographers between the barricade and the stage for about three or four songs. There was this one lady who actually took pictures of the people on the barricade. She took a couple pictures of me, which was really cool. I also made it on the big screens a couple times as well. All the guys were really energetic and happy, I think it's because they were home. They even said that they loved being home and that it was the best Vegas show they'd done. During 'Behind the Sea' and 'Mad as Rabbits' they had bubbles coming out from the side of the stage. Whenever Brendon managed to hit really high notes with his voice everyone freaked. I did too, because it was just so surreal and awesome. Ryan sang 'Behind the Sea' because he does most of the vocals on that song, and it was so good. I think it was also during 'Behind the Sea' that Brendon put the tambourine he was playing on his head and wore it as a crown. Everyone went really crazy when they played the older songs, I even danced to them. I was so excited and crazy during that show, singing along, dancing, pumping my fist, stuff like that. Sometime during the show Brendon commented that it was his first time being 21 in Vegas, and that he was enjoying it so far and drank to us. The band's videographer came out at one point and took a picture of the band and the entire audience, it was cool. It was funny when they were about to play 'It's a good reason these tables are numbered...' because Ryan was like "Okay, you guys know what jazz is right? Well we're not too familiar with it ourselves, but you should all know what jazz hands are. You do? Well good because during this next song I want you all to do jazz hands during the chorus. You all know how to snap right? I also want you to snap during the verses of the song." So that's all we did during that song, it was so much fun. Then during 'Folkin' Around' Jon and Ryan switched sides and Ryan was on our sides. As they started the song Ryan looked right at me (he probably saw my wristband and recognised me from the M&G) smiled and waved at me. I freaked out and waved back. Then he did the same to Brittany and a couple other people during the song. It was really special because he did it to me first. Then when Ryan went back over to his side Brittany shouted "RYAN IS GOD!" and Ryan looked in her direction, slightly surprised but flattered as well. On the 'last song' (before the encore) Brendon requested that we take out our 'light sabers' to swing in the air. So I took out my cell phone like everyone else and did so. Then after much chanting of "PANIC. PANIC. PANIC....." Brendon came out with an acoustic guitar and an actual light saber, he was like, "I couldn't resist." and did an acoustic version of 'Time to Dance'. Then the rest of the band came out did another song from 'Pretty Odd' and finished the show with 'Mad as Rabbits'. For the final number they had bubbles flowing out from the stage and members from Phantom Planet and The Hush Sound came on stage and finished with them. It felt very loving and special. After they left the stage we all stuck around to see if we could get a pick, drumstick, water bottle, cup of alcohol, setlist, etc. We didn't because they threw it all to the people in the middle, so we headed upstairs to the casino level to get some merch. On our way to the elevators we talked really loud and hoarsely because we could barely talk, hear, or walk. We all must of looked like a bunch of drunk people. Evan told us how he had been humped or something by this girl behind him the entire show. Brittany and I just burst out laughing. Poor Brittany had been shoved by this girl next to her the entire show, but she was ok. When we got on the elevator to go up we didn't know if we were going up or not because our knees were so numb. We got up there and the decision for merch began. It was hard at first because I really wanted this really cool jacket, but it was $55 and I only had $69 and I also wanted a T-shirt of some sort, which were $30 each. At one point I decided to get the jacket, borrow a dollar from Evan and get a $15 Panic shirt when my mom and uncle came it. She had seen me through the door trying to decide and convinced the security guard to let her in to let me buy merch. So I ended up getting the jacket, a purple Panic shirt with dogs on it, a "ReinventLove' shirt with Panic At the Disco written on the sleeve, referring to 'Mad as Rabbits', and something that only me, my mom, my uncle, Brittany and Evan know about for someone. Evan got a tour shirt, I considered getting one but I didn't like it. Brittany couldn't buy any merch because her mom didn't want her to. Then we left. As we were leaving the casino my mom told us that she and my Uncle Danny had seen Brittney Spears walk by. It was funny because we had joked about possibly seeing her at the Palms when we were going to the Palms. Then we dropped Brittany and Evan off at their houses and went home, tired and exhausted. We had all been out for nearly 11 hours, were tired and sore as hell, and didn't want to do much else but sleep. In the end however, it was well worth it. Panic at the Disco put on an amazing show, and like they said, it was the best they had done in Vegas so far. I hope that they'll be touring again soon, which they probably will. That concert made my year.

Rampaging Panic At the Disco fans

We got Bogart, he's pretty cute, but like all puppies, he's a lot of work. I just put him down for a nap, when I intended to write this blog 2 hours ago when he was still napping. He's a little devil in disguise, he bothers poor Mia' like no tomorrow. Hopefully he'll get a little nicer, he's getting the potty training thing down just fine as well. Yay for me!

So the Panic at the Disco concert is tomorrow, I'm so stoked for it it's crazy. My nerves are beginning to set in and I'm contemplating what I should say to the guys when I meet them. Jeebus. I went onto the Panic message boards today just to have a look, I hardly go on there even though I am a honorary Northern Downpour member. Those boards are fucking scary! There is no sense of order or organization there what so ever! It appears as though people are free to do whatever they want, bash other people without getting an infraction or banned, people openly talk about band members' appearances and personal lives, they talk about band members hooking up with other band members, it's crazy! This is why I'm glad I have the OMB and Blaqk Ink Style, they are nice and organized and respectful. The Panic board is full of nothing but noobs.

Evan's birthday party is this weekend! It's gonna be so much fun!

Damn small children, damn them.

Went and saw Kung Fu Panda with Kyler today because his step-father doesn't know how to lie to movie theater folk about our ages. We decided to go to a different movie time then Kyler's step-father's and his little brother's movie, but then Kyler had to call his dad and tell him where we were. DUMB ASS, then he had us go into the theater they were in, and I had to put up with whining and talking children. I would have rather taken the chance of sneaking into The Strangers then stay in that theater with those children, Jesus Christ. I liked the movie though, very cute. SKIDOUSH.

My mom had her little party thing today, it was nice, unfortunately Katie didn't come because she wasn't feeling well, but my aunt did. She gave me a bunch of AFI stuff that Katie didn't want anymore, including stuff from the second Despair Faction package and some really cool posters, I need to send her a thank you note. I'm also hoping to get a necklace from that Lia Sophia thing my mom had, there was one I really liked.

I found out today that I can only bring one small thing to the Panic meet and greet next week for them so sign, so I'm going to have them sign this small little poster that was in the boxed set of A Fever You Can't Sweat Out. Very original, I don't think any other fan would have thought of that, or I could be wrong.

Bogart comes today! In about 11 hours or so.

First Blog of Summer

School got out yesterday, it was really sad. Since I won't be seeing Nilka and all for a long time, yeah, we all cried. Today was really fun for the first day of Summer, Brittany, Evan, and Kyler came over and we hung out, and messed around like we always do when we hang at my house. It was nice.

Tomorrow, which is almost today, my mom's having a Lia Sophia party and my aunt is coming, I can't wait to see her, I haven't seen her in a while and I always enjoy seeing her. I'm really hoping that my cousin comes with my aunt, she said that she might.

I might have more concerts to go to this month, a Warped Tour pit stop at Jillians on the 23rd with Evan, Nilka, and Brittany, which I still need to ask about. And Ashes Divide at the Canyon Club on the 27th, which I asked about and mom said I might be able to go.

The preview to 'Ether' is fucking fantastic. Sounds a lot like the introduction to 'Girls Not Gray'.

Viva La Vida!

I certainly haven't blogged for a while. Wow, almost a month. Craziness. My room is now redone, with new carpet, a new bed and dresser too. Oh and my walls are painted, they look really nice. School ends in two days, TWO DAYS. The wait is nearly over! I'll be seeing some friends of mine that I haven't seen in a year, which is really exciting. Hopefully my friends and I are going to hang out later this week. Which would be super.

Then next week is the Panic At the Disco concert, which is going to be REALLY FUN. Tomorrow for my P.E. final I have to run a mile (four laps around the track) in ten minutes. It's a guaranteed fail.

This summer is going to be great, other than hanging out with friends and going to the movies and such, I hope to go to more concerts if I can. Lots of good CDs are coming out this summer, like the new Weezer and Coldplay, can't wait for those.

I had to buy my own copy of Juno the other day because my mother is a bitch and has refused to buy it unless she saw it before she bought it. Which means she was going to wait to check it out from the library to see it. She still hasn't watched it yet.

Insightful thinking and fantastic opportunities

Jeez is it already May? I forgot that I hadn't posted on here for the past... week or two? A lot has happened. I've been invited to my Photography banquet, YES! I went to the school play, All I need to know I learned in Kindergarden, which was great. I was tearing up during some parts it was so sweet. I really wanted to go to the She Wants Revenge concert tonight at the HOB but my mother said I couldn't, I need to save up for Panic merch in June. Speaking of Panic At the Disco....... I get to meet them. I won a meet and greet with them. When I found out I rand around the house screaming. It was epic.

Ughhhhhh, there are so many stories I want to tell, but then I don't want to because I'm too tired. Contradiction much? I think so.

YAY!

Jade posted that video again, I had already seen it when he first put it up on Monday, but then it was taken down for some reason. But I was the first one to ever see it, so YAY! :D

Now that we're getting a puppy I'll have to be home all the time during the summer, so now I have to go talk to my counsler to see if I can switch from normal summer school to online school, that would work out better for everyone. We picked out the puppy we're going to get yesterday, his name shall be Bogart, and this is him...

OH MY GOD

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD!

That was fucking amazing, I bet I was the only one to see that video so far. It gave me the chillssssssssss, I'm still shaking.

On another note, we're getting another dog soon. Yay! It's gonna be a little sheltie boy, his name shall be Bogart.

Babysitting a quiet kid and reading To Kill a Mockingbird brings much boredom.

I have a severe headache that's making my brain throb, maybe it's the bandana tied around my head causing the pain. I doubt it. It's keeping me from doing my work, which involves reading various chapters from To Kill a Mockingbird and doing various assignments for this book. Like I should be answering questions for chapter 14 right now, but I'm not. I found out yesterday that one of my best friends is not going to my school next year. It's not because she's moving, it's because her mother wants her to be miserable and not with her friends. I don't know exactly all of what's going on but I think that her and her mother are having a serious fight going on. She says that she's getting punished so severely because she called her mother a bitch. There's obviously more but she hasn't told me. Her punishment includes her cell phone being taken away, no Myspace, no internet at all, going to a different school next year, and the worst, she can't hang out with anyone afterschool or on the weekends until she graduates high school. That is nothing but bullshit to me. It's ridiculous that someone would do that to their child. I don't want her to leave.

In positive news, I have an art show that some of my photography is going to be featured in. I'm glad I'm going to be recognised for my hard work.

I had another odd series of dreams last night, which I appear to have a lot lately. In the "major" part of the dream I dreamt that I was at this festival concert and I had gotten these passes where I was on the floor above the stage looking at the performers bellow through a large hole. Then the announcer annouced that AFI was going to come on. Then I thought in my dream, "Fuck this, I'm going down into the crowd." So some how I got down through the hole without hurting myself and found a seat right up in front of the crowd (It was a seated venue, and oddly enough everyone was in their seats). Then AFI came on, and I woke up. In another part of the dream before the AFI performance I was at a Build-a-Bear store with some family friends and I was having a hard time deciding what I wanted to get, i think I ended up getting a zebra, even though they don't have a zebra at the actual store... Though they should, I would buy it.

Jeebus, this was more like a novel than a blog entry.

That darn Q, but not really.

Yesterday I found out from a friend that one of my best friends is smoking. It really scared me, I hope that she will realise that smoking won't help her in any way, it'll only make things worse. Then one of my other friends's father has a severe drinking problem, I'm afraid for her and her family. Hearing all of this about my friends' families and themselves makes me feel like a dork for appearing to have nothing wrong in my family or myself. But that's not true. I have severe social problems, I'm not the most talkative person in the world and when I do talk I can't always keep a good conversation going. I hope to fix that before I leave high school.

7 weeks untill the school year is ddddone, the wait is killing me, the amount of work that has been put on is somewhat overwhelming. I can't wait until Junior year where everything is like that on a daily basis.

I had an odd dream last night. I dreamt that I was with my friends in this weird place that kind of had the layout of my school, but not really. I had a photography assignment and I was taking a bunch of pictures of stuff. Then it became really dark outside and everyone disappeared because an ambulance had run over someone. Then I went into this garage that looked like my own, and there were these cool statue-carousel looking animals, bears, horses, elephants, dogs, etc. everywhere. And there was this statue of a golden elephant, it was so cool. Then I went out of that garage and went into what was supposed to be "my house" but it didn't look anything like my own home. I wanted to get my camera to take pictures of those carousel animals. There was a big clock in the house and then the Jonas Brothers (this really scared me) came out of nowhere and said they were doing a concert right there in my house. I was like "Oh shit..." because who wants to go to a Jonas Brothers concert? Honestly.... Then I woke up.

Yesterday I asked Hunter (yes, Burgan) if he was drinking purple dye because he said that his mood was purple on myspace, I hope he found that amusing.

Holy Fuke me.

Title is from third Austin Powers movie, look it up.

I feel so sick and tired this morning, for no reason too. Yesterday (no school for freshmen, yay!) I felt fine, but now I just feel horrible. I'm still sore from My Chemical Romance concert on Sunday (front row center barricade), I'm STILL sick with this god damn cold, whatever it is, and the intigestion from dinner last night isn't helping much either.

I want to stay home but than again I don't want to, ugh, I don't know what to do. I can barely spell these words right.

Northern Downpour sends it's love.

It's official, my friends are fantastic. Make it a point to see that movie SuperHero, the superhero spoof with Drake Bell. Really corny but so great in so many ways, especially that part with the snail. Then see 21, another really good movie. Then play DDR at the arcade, and don't get caught sneaking into another movie, which did not happen to us.

Concert in one day and a little over 21 hours, or something like that, it's gonna be stellar.

By the way, do you know why UC Berkeley's school colors are gold and Yale blue? Well I do.

Hey moon, please forget to fall down, hey moon, don't you go down.

It's 3:00 in the morning, I'm nearly finished with this stupid biology book, just 3 and a half more pages to go, which I'll probably complete in about six hours then I'll be done. Then there's that lovely Romeo and Juliet essay that I have to edit and type up a final draft. I'm not even tired, however if I continue with nights like this I'll become an insomniac.

I guess today is Easter, I don't see the Easter bunny anywhere so I don't think I'm getting anything this year, unless I ask. My mom still owes me for Valentines, she got my brother something, she should get me something too.

Being the only one awake in the house is odd, it's just dark and quiet, no one is up.

I've listened to the new Panic At the Disco album about six or seven times now, they don't sound like they did on A Fever You Can't Sweat Out, on this one they sound very Beatle-esque, which is okay; I like the Beatles but I don't know if Panic could pull it off. I guess they recorded at Abbey Road in London, which is cool. But Pretty. Odd. just doesn't have that, I don't know, umph to it, some of the songs are fantastic and even sound like they're straight from The Beatles, but some are just there, it's, well, odd.

You often find the most interesting things when you're not looking for them

I was in Tuesday Morning yesterday, looking at stuffed animals. You know what I found? Steiff teddy bears. If you know what Steiff teddy bears are, then you know how expensive they are. Some products, depending on how big they are and what quality they are made of, can cost over $150, for a teddy bear. Any way, I started looking at them, they were practically a steal! One of them typically cost $55 if you were to get it at FAO Schwartz, but at Tuesday Morning it only cost $22. Then I found something really cool, Steiff has done a line of plush AKC dogs. I found a chihuahua dog. Very awesome indeed. So I bought the little chihuahua, he's going to be given to someone very special that I hope to meet in the future.

As of now, I'm supposed to be doing homework, damn my procrastination. I have several big tests and projects due right before Spring Break or right after. My teachers can go to hell for not planning properly.

My mother just finished a load of whites in the laundry, there was a red garment in there. So now everything is pink.

Photograms

Taking pictures of powerlines to show a blight Nevada was interesting. Along with making a photogram with the silhouette of a My Little Pony on it, with a tree branch and some leaves.


I hate Ticketmaster fees.

Today was so much fun.

Victoria and I went to Terriaki Madness after school and had some chicken and noodles. Then we went across the street over to Starbucks and chilled for about an hour and a half. We then proceded over to Jack in the Box so that we could get Vianca her shake because we were going to meet her at her house back near school. So on the way there we saw a bird, it was a dead bird, a pigeon to be exact. We FREAKED OUT and high-tailed our asses to Vianca's. On the way there I saw an upright cup and decided to kick it. However I didn't know that that cup was half way full and when I kicked it, Coke rained everywhere, and on us. That was aweful. So when we got to Vianca's we decided to go BACK to Starbucks. Then we went back to Vianca's and played Guitar Hero. 'Twas awesome.


Oh and I'm seeing Tiger Army tomorrow, it's gonna be stellar.

Aggrivation

Guys can be such dickheads sometimes, I say this because this is what went down at lunch today:

My friends and I are all just sitting there, Evan is listening to my iPod and this guy ( a popular jock guy.... we'll call him J) comes up to me and says this:

J: Hey, you wanna bone me?
Me: What?
J: Do you want to bone me?
Me: NO! Get the fuck away from me dude-
J: Oh, so later?
Me: NO! GO THE FUCK AWAY, BRITTANY TELL THIS JERK TO GO AWAY, GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME.

Unfortunately Brittany didn't hear me and wasn't aware of what was going on. So this dumbass walks away and goes back to his friends and laughs it off. His friends had obviously told him to go screw around with some random chick. What a fucking jerk, seriously. Do you really think that I'm going to find you attractive if you ask me if I want to "bone" you? No, that was sexual harassment right there smart one. I prefer men who like me for who I am and not what's in my pants. It's days like this that I hate men (however there are exceptions to my guy friends, you all are awesome).

"It looks like the end of history as we know, it's just the end of the world!...

"Back to the street where we began, feeling as good as love, you can. Into a place where thoughts can bloom, into a room where it's nine in the afternoon and we know that it could be and we know that it should!" - Nine in the Afternoon.

While waiting for AFI to come out with their new record, I can kill some time by jamming with my other favorite band, Panic At the Disco (I guess the exclamation point that was originally there died or something, I have no problem with it but other people wanted to have a funeral for it. That's a little pathetic if you ask me.).

The Monte Carlo was on fire.

Luckilly no one was killed, or even injured for that matter. This happened about two hours ago, it even made CNN.

Anyways there is nothing to eat in this house, with the exception of various frozen food products that require the heating up of an oven, or turkey bacon. Turkey bacon doesn't sound good right now not only because it's nearly 2:00 in the afternoon, but turkey bacon is actually worser than regular pork bacon. Did you know that? Pork bacon is actually better for you than turkey bacon because turkey bacon is loaded with sodium. This is bad for all of those partial vegetarians out there (such as myself).

My sketchbook and Canon camera are calling me.

I'm one of the luckiest girls in the world, Jade Puget answered a question that I asked him.

Jimbo the Hobo supports Maroon 2

I'm shaking right now, I don't know why I'm shaking, I just am.



I have to develop film tomorrow, and look out for the people in the green or red capes with the black or purple masks, they could be riding bunnies or lizards. (And here is where the inside joke ends, I'm not crazy I swear.)

I'm in a dilemma here.

I don't know which print to get, I kind of want to get both but I think that would cost too much money...... It's down between these two prints:

or this one

Can anyone help me out?

Anyway, what's been going on the past two days.... nothing, with exception of Guitar Hero III, but I did ask AFI a question pertaining to the Scissor Sisters. That's about it. I'm going to go to BIS now. Then take some pictures........... yeah.........

Exams are over.

Thank goodness. I actually have no homework this weekend, which is amazing. Though I don't know what to do with myself, I think I'll play Guitar Hero III.

I seriously need to think about getting a job, I'm starting to have a need to obtain objects, such as a nice coat, CDs, and a certain print that has some certain people on it from a certain secret show that took place on October 2nd........

Loveline archives are fun.

I'm sitting at my parents' computer just doing random stuff, like looking for certain CD singles, checking email.... oh, and listening to the Beatles as well.

Speaking of the Beatles I actually saw the Cirque Du So lei show, LOVE, on Monday. It was fantastic, one of the best shows I've ever been to. We even got to go backstage after the show. They have some of the coolest props, like a baby grand piano that produces bubbles, a remote controlled tricycle, a rustic looking bed that has a sheet on it so big that it covers the entire audience in the theater, etc. I would love to see it again.

I shouldn't be doing this right now. My study guides for P.E. (what would you need to learn in P.E.? Seriously.) and Biology are sitting in front of me, which are the two exams that I have to take tomorrow. I need to study for Biology. Quick! Amino acids are monomers of.........?










The answer is proteins, now I'm listening to the Scissor Sisters. <3

Oh dear,

Exams are in a week and I'm starting to freak out. Health, P.E., and Photography exams should be relatively easy, but I'm concerned about Algebra, Biology, and English. My english teacher has told me that our midterm is going to consist of nothing but essays, fantastic. What else, oh yes, tiny dust particles and water spots that appear on photo negatives can go to Hell and rot for all eternity because I hate them. I still need to make another print for photography and I still need to do Photoshop Lesson 4, I'm so behind in that class. Oh god, I think I hear my parents commenting on my photo comments on my Myspace.

In case some didn't already know,

I met Smith Puget four days ago, one day after my 15th day of birth, it was amazing. I still have Biology homework to do however. I don't even know why I'm being taught Biology, I don't want to know the stages of mitosis and why plant cells have a cell wall and animal cells don't. I don't plan on having a career in that particular field thank you very much. I'm more of a photography person. Can you tell?